Saw My Grandmother!!!

[mmecurie68]

Definitely missed you guys - Happy New Year to All! I had the trifecta of illness over the holidays - first a throat infection, as soon as I finished the antibiotics for that, I got the flu just before Christmas, which, by the time I realized it was the flu, I was already past the 24 - 48 hour window for Tamiflu. You would think, working for a drug company and being an EMT, I would figure it out a little sooner, but noooo. Then, after the flu, I got a raging ear infection so bad that I couldn't walk straight, sit down and get up and all that jazz, which I then over-analyzed into a case of post-flu encephalitis because I had a lot of the same symptoms!

So, the night before I got the flu, I was getting Christmas presents ready, and finished up by 9 pm. I was going from my dining room, into my kitchen and then rounding the corner from the kitchen into my living room. All the lights were on.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw my grandmother sitting on my living room couch, in her nursing whites, facing my television, like she was watching tv, completely solid, like the last time I saw her alive and healthy - more than 20 years ago. When I turned again to do the "Holy Sh*t!" double-take, she was gone. I wasn't afraid or panicked, just very curious - why now?

The next day when I got super sick, high fever, tossing my cookies on an hourly basis, I was crawling back into my bed, and talking to the room - "Very funny, Gwan - twenty years and you come back to let me know I'm gonna be doing this...thanks!" Totally her sense of humor for sure.

I haven't told anyone in my family yet - not because anybody would think I'm batty, but more because it just seems so weird to me.

However, on the flip side, for my first apparition, better her than anybody else - she was my second mother after my parents got divorced and I've missed her for a very long time - it was nice to see her, even if it was only for a couple of seconds.

I do know she's crossed over - when my great-aunt was dying she was talking to my grandmother and her best friend and when her daughter told her to let go and go to them, she passed away.

[aneaglesangel]

Aaaw! I've just read a book by Carol Bowman, called "Return from Heaven" and maybe there's another reason why she came to you now. Maybe she's coming back to earth, and is letting you know. Part of the book deals with 'prebirth' communication, and it says many times the person shows themself in some way before they incarnate into a new body. Any babies due in your family right now?? I loved the book, think it is great for any parent facing the weird and hard to handle 'child remembering a past life' scenario! It was easy for me to feel for all of the people mentioned, for not only do I have a very powerful past life memory, but so does my youngest son. I still will never forget how he came screaming and crying and told me about his 'other parents' who'd died in a car accident, and left him 'all alone' he was so very frightened that I would die and 'leave him all alone, too!" Maybe someday soon, you'll get to look into a little child's eyes, and see your grandmother looking back at you!!

I've found some of her ideas have given me ideas about ghosts and hauntings. But I'll save that for another thread, I'm still thinking on it!!

Glad you're feeling better, mme, we missed you too!!! HUGS!

[lildebcc]

My daughter has seen her paternal Grandmother several times when she has been really sick. It can be comforting to know that they are watching over you when you are ill.

>^o.o^<

[nearkeith]

It would be difficult for me to imagine any of my grandparents appearing to me, perhaps because of their individual personalities (although I never knew my paternal grandfather). But I feel this must be a blessed experience for those who have it.

[aneaglesangel]

LOL! I recently saw a whole bunch of family members in a dream! It didn't occur to me until later that maybe there was more to it than I realized. Many of the people in the dream were people I'd never seen and didn't know in life. I've got a pretty small family, most of them remain in Canada, as far as I know, so I thought it was odd that I had such a gathering, LOL! Funny thing is, I've begun a genealogy on my family, due to the words of Rick Hayes on my call in to Spooky. I've found out some extremely interesting things, one of which is why I always felt such a strong pull toward the Native American ways! One thing is that one side of my family carries one of the oldest names on earth! Another is that we were earl's, counts, and even kings and queens!! There are castles in England that were family homes! But the most amazing thing is that there is a strong amount of Indian blood running through my veins!! But looking back on the dream, I've been wondering, were some of the people I saw, lost unknown family members to me?? I don't know yet, but I'm going to try to find out! (My astral friend was in this dream and remembers it too, so it leads me to wonder if this was 'more' than a dream!)

And I agree with ya, knowing the grandparents I had on that side of the family, I'd be surprised to see them visit me, LOL! Ya never know though, when you least expect it, expect it, I always say, LOL!! It would be nice to think that my family still loves me even beyond death, and that they would come visit me for a holiday, for you see, I cooked them Thanksgiving dinner, LOL! It was really rather nice, especially since it's just me and my boys now! Hmm, wonder if that's why they came in a dream?? Did they feel how badly I was longing for a larger family that would come and be there with us on the holidays!!?? Guess I'm just gonna have to find out!!

[mmecurie68]

Well, I ended up e-mailing my sister yesterday and telling her and asking if she has had any type of similar experience.

It is certainly interesting to me that none of this stuff happened with me when I was still drinking. I just hit 10 years sober - maybe she came for that too!

[aneaglesangel]

Congtatulations mme!! That's a great accomplishment!! Now you've got me wondering too, did she come to comfort you while you were sick, to congratulate you on your accomplishment, or maybe a little of both?? I'd love to hear what your sister has to say, if she's had any visitations, or not!!

[lildebcc]

I do not worry about the 'whys' of a visit. That is something we just do not know. The fact that someone gets a visit is wonderful enough. If someone absolutely needs a reason why, just go with what you feel in your gut is the reason, then you are probably right.

.>^o.o^<

[mmecurie68]

I may be in "Quality Assurance" now, but for many years prior to the last 4, I was an "Analytical Chemist" - the word "Anal" being in "Analytical" is definitely in there for a reason - LOL! Plus I'm a Virgo, which I think compounds it - I can definitely admit to being overly analytical!

My sister told me that while she has never seen her apparition, she has had a very, very lucid, vivid dream, and very positive that was so close to a waking experience it could have been one except for the fact that it occurred shortly after our grandmother died. I also had dreams of her for over a year.

I was pretty traumatized when it happened - I went to the beach for the day with one of my girlfriends and so far as I knew, my grandma had "the flu" - then when I got home, there was a note saying they had to take her to the hospital for a blood clot in the leg. When I woke up the next morning she had already died - [her illness had been misdiagnosed and multiple thromboses had actually caused multiple organ systems to fail and die]. There was nothing the surgeons could do when she got to the O.R.

My dreams of her at the time pretty much mirrored my conflicted mental state - I would see her and call her name, and try to get to her, and no matter what I did, I couldn't get to her to say goodbye or to touch her. They stopped after about a year.

My sister did tell me that one of my paternal aunts (I have 5 - my Dad's the oldest of 10) told her that she has seen our grandfather who died more recently (1995), so we have a little bit of precedent in the family. And she is one of our relatives (like the Marines, the few, the proud, the non-completely dysfunctional...) that we can believe without question.

[lildebcc]

I have had lucid dreams many times myself; they are amazing. I used to try to figure them out, but found that I was putting way to much effort and energy into trying to figure them out.

Sometimes, a dream is just a dream.

>^o.o^<

[aneaglesangel]

Hmm, yes sometimes dreams are just dreams, but sometimes they are more. On a few occasions I've gained insight into myself that I wouldn't have figured out if it hadn't been for wondering about a dream, and later finding out what the symbolism stood for. Sometimes I'm shocked at what I learn. I've also been experimenting with dreams and the astral world. There's a whole astral plane out there that is just as real as the reality we live in. Many times a dream is just a dream, but there are times when they're just as real as life. There have been times when I've shown up at people's houses, in full body apparition form, there have also been times when I have pulled friends into my dreams, and found they remembered the dream just as well as I did, or even better!! There are many more dimensions than our small human minds can comprehend, but if allowed to see any of them, I wouldn't want to miss a single one! I've found the experiments extremely interesting and am now totally fascinated by what I've seen and experienced. Sometimes delving into the unknown brings surprising and wonderful results!!

[lildebcc]

I know that sometimes dreams are more than dreams. But, we have to be careful banking so much on a dream. Desperate people will see what they want in dreams; similar to seeing the shape of a person in the fog if you look hard enough.

I have had similar experiences to yours; but they happen naturally. I, personally, would never force them with experimentation. After all, delving into the unknown can have dire consequences no matter how much a person says they protect themselves.

Like with all things in life, we must pick our battles carefully.

>^o.o^<

[aneaglesangel]

LOL! Ain't no forcing this stuff, it happens, or it doesn't happen. Of course it happens naturally, that's how it's meant to happen. If I end up in that realm it is only because I am meant to be there, this is where I'm meant to be and what I'm meant to do. No matter what realm you're in, dire consequences can result if you tread too heavily in any area. In all aspects of life it's best to tread lightly and with care. Don't worry lildeb, I never forget, it's ingrained in my heart!!

[lildebcc]

What I mean by naturally, is without experimentation. I, personally, see experimenting with things as forcing something to happen at a certain place/time when it might not happen otherwise.

I'm not saying that experimentation with anything is bad. It is just a kick in the pants to get things started for a person when they want it to happen, not when or if it wants to happen; we all do it at one time or another.

But, then again, that is just my personal take on the subject.

>^o.o^<

[aneaglesangel]

Hmm, how to explain, I am experimenting, but it's really practice. I have these skills, and have had them all my life. Because of the negative energy feeder I had, they were never developed properly. It started out mostly because I was finding that I could 'see' pictures in my head when involved with certain people. I found that I couldn't do it with everyone, but if I had some kind of 'connection' with people I could do this. So I started practicing this, and it became apparent that it happens, but not with everyone. I've wondered for a long time what I could be capable of if the negative energy feeder had never come pounding on my bed. These ARE natural talents, I don't think anyone can do this stuff unless it comes naturally to them.

Now the astral dream stuff, I really have no control over. It's just a part of my idiosyncracies, LOL! All I know is I started showing up at peoples' houses, people who I've connected with, who live hundreds or thousands of miles away. The first time I was told, I didn't believe them, well, not fully, I know I had an idea of things, but I couldn't believe it, especially when I seemed to have so much trouble going astral consciously. Then I showed up at more houses of people I'd connected to, and I began to wonder, could it be true? Am I flying around at night?? One thing I do know, if I go off astrally in my sleep, I wake up tired, LOL!

But then I had this dream. It seemed so real, and one of my astral buddies was with me. On waking, I knew there was something different about it, but I couldn't put my finger on it. That is, until one of my friends started telling me the details of the dream. Somehow, I pulled my friend into my dream with me. I didn't do it on purpose, at least not awake I didn't, but the result is still the same. I have done it many more times since then, and we've gone to places that I could never explain. We join each other's dreams, but we also travel a whole wide world that is out there. It's just not on this earth plane, if you ask me, it's in the astral plane.

I don't know how I'm doing this, to tell the truth, I didn't know it was possible to do these things. Seeing or sending pictures in my head is much different (though useful, for I can do it with spirits also) than speeding off to hang out with your friends in another realm of existence. This is not experimentation, this is practice. For if I do this, and it comes so naturally, then it must have been meant to be. Maybe it is so I can exert some control over what I do deal with. I have had spirits come to me in my dreams and show me things that I couldn't have known otherwise. The most memorable is the murder victim from down south, who came with a demon attached to her. She did really exist, I didn't know previous to the dream, but after I found out that she was the cousin of one of my moderators, and the family hopes to re-open the case. With things like that going on in my dreams, I must become what I'm meant to be. I don't know what it is, I'm beginning to wonder if this is an inheritance from the Indian blood I'm now sure I carry. All I know is that it keeps happening with or without my consent. Because of that, I will keep practicing and learning my skills. If I had a different childhood, maybe I'd already know what my skills were and be versed in using them. But that didn't happen, so I have to make up for lost time. Maybe I'll never gain control, but as long as this is a natural thing for me, I'll have to keep practicing, I'll have to learn how to use what I've been given. Gifts are not given lightly, they were given to use. If I don't use them, I deny all that I have learned, and one of the most important things I've learned through all of this is that love is the greatest power we possess. As long as we follow the light that lives in our hearts, we grow stronger and better as people. I know the more I do this, and face whatever it is I am, the more I grow, and the more the light inhabits my heart. I know it's not wrong, and for me, it is safe, for this is just what I do. Now if I could only figure out exactly what the heck I am doing out there.......